sorry about the quiet lately. expect it to continue through the end of the year.
at the moment, there is holiday shopping to do, lots of baking, prep work for next year’s projects, computer cleanup and rearranging and the rebuilding of the website. enough to keep my hands full, even if i wasn’t getting some time off over the next three weeks. and yes, i’ve got three, four-day weekends in a row. heavenly.
i’m hoping to get things all back in order and start anew with the new calendar year. *fingers crossed*
more important than all of that though, i’ve got a sick kitty boy in the house. our dear Chess has to have his gall bladder removed. he’s been losing a lot of weight lately (down from about 14-15lbs to only 11lbs). i can feel all his bones when we cuddle, very scary. we feared the worst (cancer or kidney failure) but thankfully it’s his gall bladder. still, not fun for him, and very scary for us. (not to mention so fuck-all expensive i don’t like thinking about it.) once this is over, each of our three wonderful fuzzballs will have had some major illness. i think that evens things out and i would be very thankful if we had no more of that!
so, happy thoughts for the kitty would be appreciated. still not sure when he’s getting the surgery, but i’ll be sure to post when we know more and when he’s back home safe and sound.
i guess all that stuff helps explain how i’ve been feeling lately. one of my nearest and dearest commented that i’ve been ‘living in my own head’ for a couple weeks now. i’d say that’s pretty accurate, unfortunately i’m not sure how to break out of it. will all the upcoming time off help? man, i hope so. i’ve been having a lot of trouble getting into the holiday spirit. it’s not even the rampant commercialism of the thing that bothers me. i generally don’t engage in that part of things, so it doesn’t effect me. i just can’t seem to keep myself in that mood of holiday cheer. it’s not that i’m unhappy, because i’m not. i’m not depressed or anything. i just feel a bit squeezed, as if i don’t have enough space in my mind or heart or emotions. no room to breathe. i think that, in reaction, i may be retreating into myself a bit, just to reclaim that space. i dunno, probably sound like i’m rambling here so i’ll just move on and try to focus on getting myself out of this little rut.
and now, i’ll leave you with a bit of holiday cheer. this was just so wonderfully done, i had to post it:
