raw, drained and totally shell-shocked here. sensory overload to an extreme so that i’m unable to sleep. only got one 5 hour chunk last night, in bed for an hour of tossing and turning at 1, up at 6:30. needless to say, it’s 12:30 and i feel like i’ve already had a full day.

my plan is to try and keep myself occupied for the day and not put too much pressure on myself. i’ve played with my messy itunes library, done tai chi (i’ll be doing it again later), and drank a big mug of chamomile tea. the rest of the day will be spend cleaning up my computer, ripping cds to itunes, backing up my blog, dyeing my hair, going for a walk and watching the yankees game.

i’ve a few other housework-type projects to complete as well. i’m hoping that my early rising, coupled with as late a bedtime as i can handle, will wipe me out and let me get to sleep tonight.

oh, and as to the reason for this altered state i’m living in, grandma’s funeral was lovely, sad, and in many ways positive. i’ve a very closely-knit family and it was good that we were all there.

now to figuring out how to move on from here.