blech. not a big fan of major change. i don’t particularly enjoy it.
yes, i know, change can be a good thing, and the changes coming down the pike seem to be pretty good.

mom and dad are looking at a newer car for me. they’re quite generous and have been helping with my car repairs for years now. a fact that both helps and hinders me at times. anyway, instead of putting a bunch of money into a car with a ton of mileage on it (my beloved delilah-the-ford-escort-stick-shift) they are looking at picking up a 1999 sable automatic with only 29,000 miles on it.

i’m torn about it. i know i shouldn’t be. a nicer, much more dependable car with minimal mileage that would probably last me until my financial woes are cleared up and can afford my own car payment. there should not be even a question that this is a good thing. but being me, i have to put forth a few items.

first, i just like my car. she’s teal and she’s little (like me). she’s got a hatchback and you can fit more into her trunk than physics would say you should be allowed. she’s also a stick shift, a driving style i’ve come to really love since learning. this also means she gets kick ass gas mileage (33 mpg, thank you very much). and lastly, and most sentimentally, she’s mine! she wasn’t my first, that was samson, but we’ve been through a lot together and it will be tough to let her go.

the other change is my old ibook. she’s not doing well. ubuntu/gnome/linux went on without a hitch, but she seems to be having some kind of hardware issue that, despite hours of research, i seem to be unable to figure out. i’m hoping to take her to an apple store soon and see what the folks at the genius bar there can do for her. i’ve never given this old computer a real run. she’s always been underused because she’s never been really up and running the way i’ve wanted her to be. i’m well and truly bummed about it. i’ve been able to fix any computer problem that has come my way, but this one, i just seem to keep getting stuck. it’s not just a point of pride. i just want to be able to use this little machine. i have my silly little dreams about going to the library to do research and taking her along to take notes on. stupid and silly? possibly, but that’s what i want to do, so there.

and just so you don’t all think i’m shallow or caught up in my own head, i realize that these are things that don’t mean a whole lot in the grand scheme of things. but sometimes taking care of the things closest to us helps to make life a little bit better and enables us to pass on the joy to others.