first of all, happy earth day!

now, on to some more cranky stuff.
i’ve been trying to not be too much of a downer in here. considering what’s gone on in the past year in my life, that’s quite a challenge. and i think i’ve done pretty well. so, i need to express a little something that i am working through right now.
see, i’m in a transitional phase with my new job. i’m in the nyc office for a couple of months for training, reorganization so i’m commuting on the train/subway. this means a lot of time out of the house, new people at work (who are great, really) and the crush of people that is nyc at rush hour. all of this, while sooo much less stressful than my previous job, has lead to a feeling i don’t think i’ve ever had before. isolation. i’m away from my family. i’m surrounded by strangers all day. on the commute, i’m literally elbow to elbow and no one speaks or smiles. yes, i am aware that this is part of what being in the city is all about, but that doesn’t mean it has to make me happy. it’s got me kind of down, actually. i think it may be a major factor in why i’m so tired when i get home, regardless of the fact that the last couple weeks have been a breeze at work. literally nothing to do. i also tend to be one of those types who thrives on kinetic energy. when i get on a roll, i can keep going, but give me a little task here, a little one there with long periods of nothing to do, and my brain starts turning into mush. i don’t want you to get me wrong, though, the job is good and the change that will happen in a couple of months will turn this into what i think will be an ideal position. the money is also a huge help. and i do appreciate the unadulterated time to read on the train. all in all, things are running smoothly, i’m just a bit lonely. i hope i can find some way to more comfortably cope for the next couple of months.